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All at Ljuby in a life developed not bad, except one. On the seventh year of a matrimonial life she definitively also has irrevocably stopped loving the husband. Simply could not transfer it more nearby and all. Irritated, as he eats, as speaks, as has a shave, as sleeps. As does not clean after itself ware from a table as scatters dirty socks as leaves on all house of a crust and bits from fruit. Ljuba very much hoped, that it will find to itself(himself) other woman and will throw her – eternally quarrelsome, eternally shouting, eternally dissatisfied. But Stepa did not find. Also did not leave, accordingly.
Time went. Nerves at Ljuby handed over. She few times demanded divorce. He shortly spoke I "will not give" and closed this theme. For itself, probably, having drawn a conclusion, that the wife rages with fat. In reply to such reaction Ljuba raged even more terribly.
Worst of all became, when there came the affinity moment. Basically Ljube it was possible otvertetsja, but few times in a month no excuses helped. Ljuba screwed up eyes more feasibly and suffered. Very much, it is intolerable, it would be desirable to push away a hated body and to shout loudly «everything, will suffice already!». Creaking teeth, Ljuba restrained and hated it is even more. Stepa its tortures, appear, did not notice – fulfilled the program and peacefully fell asleep, having turned on the left side. And Ljuba long then could not close eyes and laid in darkness, sparkling yellow pupils for a rage.
She has met Valery at job. And for a long time, but attention to it Ljuba did not turn. Fortunately, it was not to it neither the chief, nor the subordinate. Simply employee from other department. And if to look on a scale of ranks, Ljuba in the company stood immeasurably above. And interest any there at similar rasklade first seemed it simply impossible. That it was impossible to tell about Valere. Possessing natural impudence and an instinct of the hunter, it on such trifles of attention did not turn. Persistently and purposefully achieved the. Called. Invited. Waited. Watched. Ljuba was angry and, it is proud having thrown up a head, from dialogue left. But somehow time it has appeared with it behind one little table in cafe during a dinner – there were no other empty seats and it had to sit down – and has got to talking.
Valera it has appeared marvellously the interesting interlocutor. Cheerful, widely-read, naughty. Ljuba at all has not sustained – has awarded with a weighty compliment.
-Valera, you are matchless!
-It means, — Valera has straight off turned – I am similar to a demon? You flatter me, but it is all the same pleasant! – both of them have absolutely synchronously burst out laughing.
After joint dinner Valera has definitively grown bolder – has rushed somehow into its study in the middle it is white day and has invited in theatre. And "for today". Ljuba even to think over it was not going to – has already opened a mouth to refuse. But Valera to it and words to insert has not given.
-Ljuba, do not speak anything! – Valera chastil, was afraid, that him will interrupt. — necessarily it is pleasant to you — performance under Jury Poljakova's play «Homo Erektus». I would not began to offer you any nonsense. To Theatre of Satire from office a hand a tax – any time expenses. I Ask-u-u! – and it has crashed down before it directly on knees, having had time to clamp tickets between a teeth as if a rose, and looking from below upwards such devoted and asking look, that Ljuba has not resisted.
And so, probably, would surrender. Name poljakova was for it something like a magic spell – to it pulled as on a magnet. Even taking into account that the play she already saw. And in general has read and has re-read everything, that it was possible to buy or find in the Internet. Only here whence Valera about its this weakness has learnt? They did not discuss product poljakova. Absolutely precisely.
Anyway, in eighteen thirty Love Andreevna distsiplinirovanno has switched off the computer, has changed clothes of shoes and, taking a handbag, left an office. Valery shining as an electric lamp in two hundred watt, waited for it in a corridor. To take its arm or to do something in this sort it, thanks God, has not dared. And that from it would become on pleasure all curious. Simply submissively has gone nearby. Ljube even a step to reduce it was not necessary. So their joint exit from job looked absolutely innocently – well, there were in a corridor two colleagues. Ljuba has mentally added to Valery some points for understanding and a step.
Performance was invariably good, in spite of the fact that for the first time Ljuba observed some other structure. It was ridiculous, it is sad, cheerfully, terribly. In general, all was, and the main thing – the thought started to move more actively. And in the ending did not take away hope. Did not expose all complete scoundrels. And that is liked at us by creative intelligency loudly from a scene to declare «you, misters good, generation – lost. Inutile you generation». Usually after such «demonstrative performances» Ljuba ran into depression. To live it would not be desirable. Poles, despite intolerable weight zhivopisuemogo lives, decadent moods did not bring. Let not all in our country is smooth, let people are impaired a little by sharp change of a system and values, but good it is more. In sense, in people.
To office they came back thoughtfully. Valery who was usually talking without a stop, with concentration was silent. Ljuba too. In a head the same thought «here after all the temper persistently span, knew where to deduce». After joint viewing «Homo Erektus» Ljuba could not assert more, that they with Valeroj another's people.
Have touchingly and absolutely decently said goodbye, everyone has sat down in the car and has gone home.
Further the life at Ljuby the beginnings imperceptibly to vary. At first dreams. Behind them and all the rest. Ljube Valery dreamt. That at office, on its summer residence somewhere else – Ljuba could not disassemble. It seemed, someone has registered in advance the scenario of these dreams and now persistently scrolls them in different scenery. The sense always was same – the first, burning and improbably sweet, a kiss. Ljuba went mad of a touch of his lips. Such sharp and bright impressions last time overtook its years in fourteen when it after long meek and passionate love has touched for the first time «the man of the dream». To "Man" for that moment was nineteen, and he not very much noticed the juvenile fan. And here here you are – has condescended before, that has invited her to dance. Ljuba then hardly kept on feet turned in in knees and smiled, it is happy and derevjanno, as Buratino.
Valery has returned this magnificent condition to it. However, meanwhile all was limited only to a dream and business did not reach real kisses. But every minute Ljuba tensely waited. To work it became intolerable – sitting for the table, it only and did, that was mown on a door, expecting, that that will swing open and in an aperture there will be Valery. But it after a campaign in theatre has replaced tactics. Practically was gone. Did not call, did not watch, anywhere did not invite. Having happened in a corridor, very politely greeted and looked the viscous sight filled with melancholy. Ljuba did not understand. Also it was frightened, that now when it has appeared to it it is intolerable it is necessary, suddenly, it is not known for what reason has grown cold. Though sights obviously spoke it about the return. Ljuba has got confused and already noticed nothing around, absorbed by internal wars with by itself.
Stepa to which the wife paid now attention no more, than about conditions, in the meantime was going to for a week to Egypt – at them at the enterprise it was accepted to arrange two times a year general sorties with a view of «command strengthening». The administration reserved charter-party, reserved hotel, employed trainers, and management practically with its full complement left on compulsory rest-study. No excuses in attention were accepted. Yes, in general, anybody especially also did not mind – “team-building” business good. The main thing was for this week not spitsja and to return the body to Moscow in though a little adequate condition.
Ljuba has joyfully brought the husband to the airport, with investment has sighed and began to think how to use the week which has got to it of absolute freedom. Ideas was much, but to undertake it was in time of nothing – all has dared by itself. As soon as Ljuba has come on job on Monday, the office door was opened, and on a threshold there was Valery. The poor thing from unexpectedness has shuddered and has grown cold. Could not Valera learn what there has left the husband? Or he read its thoughts?
-Pass! – Ljuba has practically choked with own words. – and please, cover a door.
Valera has made, as to it ordered, and has then approached to it behind and silently, convulsive movement, has embraced for shoulders. Ljuba has become puzzled: it was not pulled out, but also did not undertake reciprocal actions. Valera has developed it on a chair to itself the person and has dropped hungry lips to the mouth slightly opened in amazement. The sensation was strange. Ljuba so long and with such trembling waited for its touches, that, thought, will instantly go mad of happiness that minute as soon as it will touch it. Anything similar has not occurred. There were simply embraces. And simply kiss. Ljuba has attributed it to nerves – probably, all was mixed and has mixed up in its poor, hammered devchonochimi nonsense, a head. But not to brake now when all was put, at last, in motion.
TH I want you! – has whispered Ljuba, closing eyes. She has felt, as its body has answered these words – all muscles to uniform have strained. Became firm, as a stone.
-I have you to a message. – has croaked Valera in the answer, has come off it and has looked down.
-But me is where. – Ljuba has looked directly at it. – the Husband will not be whole nedelju. -
It is not correct. – Valera has sat down before it on hunkers and looked now from below upwards.
-Let. I so want.
They have agreed. Ljuba some hours have like mad rushed off home, not dosidev till the end of the working day. Has dropped in on road to shop. With inhuman speed has cleaned to shine apartment, has made a supper. Valera has come. Ljuba fussed and was nervous. Did not find to itself a place and did not know as how to tell.
There will be a tea or coffee? – She has silly asked. The voice shivered.
No. – Valera stared at it.
That?
-You.
Ljuba has not understood, how they have come to be in a bedroom. Has not noticed, how her have undressed. Valera all did itself – Ljuba did not show the initiative. And hardly it could do it. Touches Valery, contrary to expectations, remained same fresh and insipid, as well as in its office. It is a little more, and Ljuba has started to struggle with itself: it is intolerable it would be desirable to push away the lover and to shout «everything, will suffice already!». It, having compressed a teeth, has endured. Having blinked to a pain in centuries, thought about Stepe which seemed now much smaller harm. At last, Valera has stopped. It has received pleasure or not, Ljuba did not wish to know. But it has fallen to it all body, and any time laid, not in forces to recover the breath, — means, successfully.
In half an hour Valera easy slept on a husband's pillow, having had time to seize Any once again. It resisted, but nobody listened to it. It has turned it on a stomach, has covered a head with a pillow and did everything, that considered it necessary. Ljuba watered catch a cold hot tears. Also has not stopped even when Valera, in the end-ends, has fallen off it, has calmed down, and became then more equal to breathe.
Ljuba has got out of bed and has trudged on kitchen. It swayed here and there so as if it has terribly got drunk. There was only one desire – to get rid of the gone through senseless shame, to forget everything, that is connected with bed in general. Whether it be Stepa or Valera – it is not important. It has silently put forward a box of a finishing table in which tablewares were stored. Has climbed a hand in the depth and has taken a huge kitchen knife. The knife was old, still antiquated, with the wooden handle and an impressive wide edge. From all Ljubinogo inheritances only it also was saved – the most reliable, the most tested. Ljuba has turned a knife in hands, admiring silvery light by which the full moon was reflected in him. At first wished to make it directly on kitchen, but has then regretted Stepu – that a tile, that wall-paper from blood not to wash. It is necessary to it, to the poor creature to do here repair and to struggle with experiences, finding anywhere and everywhere reminders on it. Ljuba has gone to a bathroom and has closed a door from within. Has climbed in a bath, has drawn a curtain, has laid down. The knife has entered unexpectedly easily as in butter, and the pain was hot, but short.
Valery has woken up in the morning – the sun already stood highly, painting the drawn curtains yellow light. He has put on, has filled bed. Has opened a door in a bathroom, has cautiously glanced for a curtain. Udovletvorenno has nodded and left apartment, having slammed for itself an entrance door. * * *
Stepan has got out of cool pool and has gone to the plank bed. Has wiped the person and hands a state towel, took phone. Habitually, two pressing, has dialled number of the wife. Hooters left in empty space – the answer has not followed. For a today it was already its tenth call. By the evening long hooters in phone were replaced by a female voice «the subscriber temporarily is not accessible». «The battery, at last, has sat down» Stepan has thought. It was nervous, deprived any information and swore to itself under a nose. The message has come only hours per seven – already there was an impenetrable dense darkness. «All is successful. Itself, as you also predicted. The rest – on a former bill». Signatures were not. Any data too – the message have sent from MTS site. Stepan for a second has felt pleasure, has felt itself otmshchennym. And then has suddenly weakened – pressure, as always, has sharply fallen – and has fallen on cooling down sand, having covered with palms a pale face.
21.02.2007 11:58 Tragic history, but hard certainly to imagine such noble woman... I Think, in a real life of a vein those to whom have changed is more often cut.
 Egor
21.02.2007 14:51 I do not know, images quite "real" and plausible, but a plot... To mysticism does not hold out, to a love drama too.
Misha
26.02.2007 13:05 Friends, and how much you vkurili the general sense of an ending of product and a true plan which wished to pass the author? How much I have noticed, nevkurivshih was much and the author have slightly changed an ending. That it was clear.
I recommend to read and estimate yours previous sensations. I was glad that I was not mistaken in the primary conclusions.
Haba
26.02.2007 13:29 What numbers have been made changes??
Changes I do not see - as there was a suicide certificate so it and continues to take place.
Egor
26.02.2007 17:53 Again all muzhiks goats - well all is clear, the woman-author... :)
Marat
26.02.2007 22:53 I as the main goat in a life of the author will shortly answer: I "will not give".
The anonymous author (well all ponjatnov the general)
27.02.2007 15:12
Well so, srednenko, to tell the truth. It is good, that though it is short
WILD
12.04.2007 15:52 not pravdlopodobnaja a situation, on how much I know women in such foreshortening Ljuba not when would not commit suicide... But it is written well. Good luck
Alexey
19.04.2007 10:46 Not clear situation. It is a pity......
Diana
19.04.2007 10:46 Not clear situation. It is a pity......
Diana
26.04.2007 16:27 As the girl I will tell one: men, be attentive to women!!!!
RiTuLKa
12.03.2008 11:40 That has called the story? Negation - is exact or the indignation is faster even. Probably, this weak woman Ljuda, improbably weak and silly, time cannot give up in sex to the husband, time Valery such primitive act a smog tyres out it in deadlock. Strange very much and absolutely improbably. But on that it and the story that the author to show imagination, and to the reader to try to plunge into it. As a whole, I think so, time product it calls emotions it is already quite good.
Lea
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